but before i go and settle down...if i can get back to walking which is the only REMEDY to all ailments and the ailment of the fake people pleasing (sorry just a fact 75%  - in fact that is being kind..as a pure equalicist i notice who is in the 'room' and lament that 40 years ago in environmental gatherings it was 50% women and guess what they were just as tough and never made personal comments...as 99,9% now do...because they knew we were all on the same side and babes just as tough as blokes)... all the lost precious pretenders...

silly people - in fact it is the only pandemic i l know of, assume...

2005-10 i was involved in - euphemism for no one else could help... several dozen families - mainly angry single women... wrongly about to have their family life ruined by evil state liars...maybe even profiting from forced 'adoption' to another profiteer.. and as many blokes wrongly (as courts would say!) blocked from being dad....and DID stuff for them - REAL stuff...tried to arrange meetings with warring ex, sad stuck frightened child, even trying to use teachers as bridges...

DID stuff - no thanks (the parent is always in a kind of grief so they cant even mean 'thanks' .. accepted!)

DID.. really draining tiring doing...days on end with some parents... dealing with their (nowadays addiction - endlessly going on about their) pain...

days on end

then the last decade doing some more... the funniest the one for the man actually dying of cancer - a ferkkin hosopital certificate to prove... the 'mindfulness' yoga lot  - female one and all - as they made it their righteous industry... approached to help him see his children he had not seen maybe 4 years.. before he DIED... THEIR 'sister' abducted them abroad and we even had HER written confession (in her 'Manuscript' - handed down by the divine superpowers to her every day..i still have it) she was HARMING her 6ish year old and 8 ish yerar old..

but would they help when pleaded with...(me stood next to him having set up the call..)

nope..

And then 2020... well we do have 4 or 5 witnesses to this at last...

Your hysteria...  not me, the most fab soring summer for decades... 3 young 10 year old lasses  supported very actively that summer..  very...wonderful time! the tautology in there because in fact they were the only grown ups that summer i met...

And from late summer five parents/ households so totally 'supported' - .. meaning hours of dull angst i would sit through...in one case 50+ hours.,... no mask except the ones i needed so i wouldnt breathe in their spittle...rage..loathing...angst.. they couldnt just start work like normal people (they could) and stop fucking up self / kids...with too much booze and drugs..(and these all nice middle class ish peeps i avoid the thug class - far too dangerous...except a gang of lads ... early 20s...i tried to encourage... that didnt end well...under ctv hahh hahh... no retaliation why bother with GBH ..it was their mum actually i knew..)

About 500 hours of real self-starting, unpaid, 'community social work'....which often is about just sat there hours being bored to death by 'i have adhd  (fat as) ashamburbger  syndrome... etc .. which still means you could work at some nice easy self employed job..and [miraculously] New Enterprise Allowance is a fabulous no strings HMG way to ease into self employment ...so i will help you with forms and strategy...SO much easier to get it for the last year we have it - it was paid by the EU 30+ years... being cancelled... " usually about 20 hours each time as one has to repeat oneself despite lovely handwritten notes for them... many a time... . when everyone else was moaning and being hysterical

The truly interesting Orwellian aspect - when around a mad dangerous 50 something woman even..  behind smiles and "you are narcissistic.. " as soon as it gets to ACTUALLY setting up simple decades known strategies.. get them to NA.. expert 'ex sufferer' mentoring.. the STANDARD package..

as standard one has to recruit other middle aged safe pairs of hands..(all services closed down and ran away)... the amount of perfectly healthy, even ANTI lockdown or carrot folk i tried to recruit as helpers... (" you could be buddy ... this one may need a run to Bristol AA...stop her killing her kids.. i know she wont knife anyone but as a man alone in a car with her she will as they all do make up some hate crime... yes we know its just cos she hates herself and daddy poor lamb..but a remedy is if there are two of us she wont dare... society has known about that simple strategy for thousands of years.."

yes maybe them next time you see them, next day..may as well been in a porn hologram 

i wonder if they are in.. pretending to care porn...must get off even middle aged churchy or clean living pretend communitarians..

I know i did my time... loads! when i should have been doing FAR more important things...

just cos my office is outside in the park and i have a tan ... doesnt mean i dont get up most days at 5am and set out their to do lists to save their lives... or at least their livers... or children...all i cared about but the Matilda moment (i will never forget her look) i think told me all i needed to know..

all fake.. mum and dad  and their neurotic needs, first..always

especially of they pretend otherwise