17 july 2026
recorded wandering back from long hill walk
Now even if i NEVER moan ever ...
And without any doubt UK became the world champ in victim Olympian this and that (especially if you listen to BBC especially radio 4 and i am such a victim i havent had a tv 25 years... and longtime lived in places where you could only get radio 4 long wave.... )
Anyway i can claim world championship in the death-by-'estrangement' Olympics..
11 years always with kid... exactly half the time.
Stolen ..
But even if far lesser an issue my whole 'identity' in a very rural area was ONLY as esti and dad...
to everyone around they almost only saw dad and child together
Never mind even nowadays if someone Oggles me ... they will see esti and dad...
And a hedgehog i believe, that never existed ... I have never looked i dont google..
it lies
as liars use it
Anyway ones whole identity was also a public identity (even if all inhabitants of The Marches especially Hay-on-Wye too effete and or stupid to understand simple societal law that they may need to one day to refer to) of successful equalicist in respect of child and separated parent (even if i did more lay legal cases for women tortured by the state via their kids)
I doubt ANYone has a worse and most 'shame' full endless dead Albatross around ones neck - not there of ones own hand...
And will always.
THIS IS AN ORAL ESSAY ON ESTRANGEMNT and why its wrong to even use that word or we need a better language and 'ambiguous bereavement' isn't right though i respect her for trying - i like her and 99% of experts (i went to UKS LEADING psych degree at UWE as adult student 30 yrs ago and left as they were appalling even then..) to me are pretty lost intellectually retarded users...(i have studied the philosophy of science..or epistemology - HOW does knowledge come about? which is a SOCIAL matter always was always will be, for 40 years...and none of them even can get that any more that they are culturally constructed as Lewontin pointed out in his magnificent Doctrine of DNA long ago)
audio file on estrangement
https://drive.google.com/file/d/10-BREEeM-cCX_4MvZDdOoP5_nB-wU2g0/view?usp=sharing
THIS page also has 10 minutes of film to go with it on how to survive the worst, that will be upoloaded by afternoon 18 July 2026 - speeds slow...battery going...
references
and within my audio i refer to fraudulent 'estrangement' 'charities or campaigners.... now if you have like SO many been attacked by the usual made up nonsense that are used to shut you up...allegations of harassment and all that (SO common) i have taken precautions and always have a recorder on in my pocket if ever out for 13 years...
and record all my calls
such as one with this conman or likely all female organisation two years ago (and several follow up emails and messages)
(Even if formerly FNF were one of the very very worst offenders so its not just a mainly female "third sector" gravy train - ohh yes and my ONLY friends are women around my age who ALL know that their sisterhood of the third sector are THE problem and worse than even i dare describe...
They - my female friends, are offended by the gravy boat and know the damage it has done. In fact every occasional chat when i reveal some next baddie.... THEY will say to me " ohh....another one... whatdyer know.."
so called charities spinning themselves into the gold rush of public money or private donation.... whilst doing NOTHING to ever help anyone except their often gold plated pension pot )
and i shall publish emails with the fake therapist Bland... soon
attempted las gasp get though to lass letters (handwritten and then sent as jpg attachment to emails attempting SOME human touch) are here
https://leftovers2022.blogspot.com/p/the-letter.html
and then updated here (the first one was a partial lie or maybe error in that i was too conciliatory about the bad acts of others...... not wanting to rock the boat - truth hurts lies damage, the endless tightrope the estranged (or as i say BEREAVED or deadsouled.. in the audio) must tread...cos they have their 'ghost' button... )
https://leftovers2022.blogspot.com/p/e-letter-10-april-2023-plus-new-stuff.html
plus all correspondence with lass is already in a public webpage link later
PLUS in July 2023 on ralphcschism youtube i waffled to the camera 3 parts of the MOST 'shame'ful story ever ... nothing to do with me but had it got out into public would have been the ultimate in newspaper headlines.. from a 2018 attack on me....
why they tried to destroy me with a legal case that was thrown out by the court in disgust...
(in a manner never usually used the court actually refused to action the summons - i was there and they apologised to me on the record saying " you dont go into the dock...you sit here and we will chat .. this never happened we are so shamed" ..words to effect... and not even the ignorant little scandal monger journos in court reported it - a humiliation that would have made national headlines... which was nothing to do with ME...just some parents can never stop attempting to use even an adult child as weapon which only further destroys that kid...mine... and no therapy i guess is going to get her back from the bottom of that gully at the foot of the cliffs... )
