NEW PAGE CREATED 8 Sept 2026
UNDER DEVELOPMENT
as a sort of index to the more meaningful aspects of my two sites (the other more freeform semi Proustian, that i always enjoy) working on the things that EVERY non Tory/Republican have said to me for years are beyond End Times..
But i am an optimist so attempt to at least describe how they are wrong... even if it is their fault. MY most decadent self obsessed myopic generation in history.
I know my kids was ALWAYS engaged and pretty well balanced - EVERYone said so, too
https://www.simonclayton2020.com/p/home-video-esti-and-dad.html LOADS MORE to put here within a week
and LOADS more proof coming up here soon which i started a little while ago.
https://www.ralphschism.com/p/the-wound.html
THE PURPOSE of which is that ALL i hear from everyone ever in the Anglosphere is moan moan moan.
I had the worst loss ever in history which even included the worst load of childless cunts in history - her aunty and uncle and lost monet and celeb obnsessed user of a grandmother, weirdly acting against her brilliant parenting with a father from 2010, who everyone said was 100%
a video proof of one of many things you dont get as a child unless you are 100% - in 2009 age 10 she was made an official judge in the British ferret championships UP NORTH at Chatsworth House in front of many hundred ferret obsessives at the annual final big show (the crufts of ferret world) ...as she was known over a few years we would join them at shows, to be THE most sorted balanced smart and fun kid ever... never mind us having great cup winning ferrets, she was never fazed, never arrogant ..caring only to be FAIR.... and perfect with her beasts. Dozens we had.
you can't fake that in front of the most real Northerners there are...
and i do not moan ... ever
i merely truy to find things in my story that may either assist other parents or even assist the next generation knowing how mine has been the most useless fake one in history in respect of the environment.
I know as i made that centre of my life for many years even after when a kid was permanently fucked in the head by the tragic little vanity projects in others warped minds... .... and only for her
(best books ever on that soon one day...)
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The big moan. ALL i hear is endless endless desperate easy fixes sought to endless mental and other health issues it bores me to tears but i reckon i know how to move out of it all...
a series i have at times wasted my time on in the last few years i will attempt to catalogue here all in one place
https://www.simonclayton2020.com/2026/07/come-and-get-your-free-selkie.html
https://www.simonclayton2020.com/2026/07/i-would-like-to-know-of-worse-one.html
https://www.simonclayton2020.com/p/estrangement.html
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plus some really ALL-the-way other stuff
https://www.simonclayton2020.com/2026/07/my-life-story-cont.html
https://www.simonclayton2020.com/p/theres-no-success-like-failure-and.html
https://www.simonclayton2020.com/p/will.html
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On child wars and specifics that NOBODY ever speaks of i know as i am a brilliant listener even if thick.
https://www.simonclayton2020.com/2026/07/the-solution.html
https://www.simonclayton2020.com/2026/07/not-for-me-for-next-lot-in-queue-for.html
https://www.simonclayton2020.com/2026/07/community-and-only-way-i-know-of-to.html
On 'feminism' or rather just EQUALITY god i wish it would have been sorted out ALL the way decades ago
(it has destroyed the environmental movement for years 'gender' politics and NOTHING to do with trans either.... just sex wars, and you don't even get any sex out of it)
AND THE BIG RECENT ONE I HAVENT FOUND YET...
i do only ever work off grid!
all takes time...
https://www.simonclayton2020.com/p/woman.html
communique sent to MAry HArrington March 2025(unread)
https://www.simonclayton2020.com/p/mh.html
https://www.simonclayton2020.com/2026/07/the-voice.html
and from Sept 2026 a REALLY interesting unusually good Heather Heying on why Gloria Steinem really buggered up rather a lot of feminism whist we were still in nappies. Most of which i said in my material several years earlier good for me....
https://open.spotify.com/episode/6uB7o3hbkBcLUangYN6tcs
And back to more specifically the 'mental elf' and just how to live in a GREAT mentally balanced way. Always, no matter what. I know i do and have for years.
https://www.ralphschism.com/p/index-at-last.html
https://www.ralphschism.com/p/mental-elf-roundup.html
https://www.ralphschism.com/2026/09/how-to-cure-all-yer-adhd-autism-ocd.html
https://www.ralphschism.com/2026/08/roundupwell-it-was-going-to-be-wussy.html
https://www.ralphschism.com/p/baggery.html
BUT it's all also nowadays linked into what is almost entirely EVASIVE behaviour of parents who think that having children 'assessed' as having a neurodivergence, this is helpful when ONLY this is actually HELPFUL
written up here... the SOLUTION. and i can say so as by todays standards in the late 70s early 80s i would have been handed out a few of those labels and by age 30 was 100% 'normal' forever to stay so.
https://www.ralphschism.com/2026/09/how-to-cure-all-yer-adhd-autism-ocd.html
PLUS, as i am on a sadly never ending road trip without going very far, i began in 2016, though shifted to warmer climes, which in an obtuse somewhat Proustian way is a happening most days on ralphscism.com
one forgets to put in the punch lines, continued here
https://www.ralphschism.com/2026/09/silly-me-one-forgets-one-is-in-this.html
YES there is 'NORMAL' and i became 100% unfashionably normal, by thirty years ago and have remained so ever since. Why of course no English will ever collaborate or even be reliable buddy. As they seem absurdistly addicted to their 'problems' or those of their kids.
RIVERS ETC a bit more specifically even if they all have BPD NPD 1000 different 'eco' messiahs for every poor dying poisoned fishie.... none of whom talk to each other or share resources such as desk computer secretaries PR companies... staff... lifts to planning meetings to STOP polluters...weird that as theyre all on the same one job.
https://www.simonclayton2020.com/p/wye-mar-2024.html
https://www.simonclayton2020.com/p/marches-madness.html
