So, I like my partial - some-of-the-time, slightly surreal 'Odyssey' mode that i have been in for 15+ years
Mainly when walking. I do a lot.
And I like mergolating upon the whole damn business of... I don't know what exactly but do have a truly good memory especially when it is augmented by my little hobby - diarising though i prefer the simpler word merely chronicling. (for the next generation - i believe in books from Pepys to even the awful Knausgaard - i read almost every word of his several thousand pages of 'My Struggle' and not one of them made me want to 'live', on the other hand Maryam's so shameful true story so bravely told ALL the way... For The Love of a Son. made me able to live through a once only period of shame - thrust at me from outside using an adult child as weapon once again 2017, as the magistrates did quite remarkably prove by their actions: "you will not sit in the glass box, as far as we are concerned this should never have happened and you are not even IN this court")
Anyway only because I was somewhat shocked in a best way - inspired... by at least one woman meaning it that she likes to read the 'truth'...
I shall uncloak (meaning i haven't linked it anywhere even if i don't do social media - ralphschism.com is something different..it is a bit Montaigne "how to live" and Proustian day trippy - in the ZONE..its lovely being in the 'zone'. and it's not linked on ralphschism either .) The most failed crowdfund in the history of them.
That said that whole model seems teetering on a cliff - Unbound Books for all their spivving themselves up ... have gone.
The thing about "the truth" is if merely one dimensional i don't think it really sinks in and stays in.... some augmenting or even fictional jokes... maybe make it more 'alive'. I always believed in.
Thing is i know the real 'truth' - all of it... if you aren't frightened of one word...is what actually does help, people...i know it helped me i always sought the truth in books and warts and all are always best... so i procrastinate too much.
And not until this Christmas was i able to entirely truthfully share all...as i had to share it with the one whom suffered by it, first...
It was only then, time...
What would you do if someone categorically stated they were taking a child abroad permanently to... spite me - me having batted off the first round of sad (never sexy they never dared stoop THAT low..i wonder why not?) false allegations in a court 2002.....always pushed - the acid mainly by a sad lost man in fact (who deserted his own in reality, i guess it was too intimidating for him to hear so often of a man who had done quite the reverse..) ...stolen away to a country where her dad was a drunk mad mafia copper blessim in the darkest wildest corner of said country, and just a few months before there was a much heralded case in the media about a man who had for years attempted to even GET a court hearing in Poland under those exact same circs... and couldnt
But I am not that interested in 2003ish - 10, its what happened next that's far more ... actually life affirming and pretty good for other how-to-live learning. In fact if in 2010 someone had told me my book of 2010 and on existed i would have told them to bugger off and keep to the fairy tales.. but it was the book that maybe may have helped me, so i better try and write THAT one, too
and i know landlope.com is kindof unique - i have been looking for a TRUE 'walking' book for years..
can't find one that isn't self reverential, basically a load of made up showoff lies, and entirely lacking in 'bounce', so that one i really do want to get to but damn it it's book 3.
Don't know why i even bothered i knew it wouldn't work even almost getting it 'right' .. and none of my MANY YEAR devoted friends meaning i devoted SO much time to a bit of their 'therapy'. .. ( 300+ hours to a wonderful but lost cancelled LAdy bishop in 2024.. lost ...at least she doesnt get you arrested for BUGGING her "Jo you will die far earlier if you dont walk get out and walk the wonderful Path you live actually upon..." nope up to London for 'tests''' when we both knew what was wrong - she failed to TELL HER STORY..of how she was injusticed.. cancelled as Wales first LAdy bishop...for speaking 'out'...just an itzy bit
.not one ever ever .. ever put their hands in their pockets... or stayed on the same side of the road as oncoming me, out shopping from 2010...
But then thats what you get, when a whole society seems bizarrely fearful of the subtle timeless universal...truths...
https://www.kickstarter.com/projects/ralphschism/book-1-in-a-series-of-4
