If a certain schoolteacher i met today puts her splendid nose in here, I am going to try to write one short succinct summary, in fact of our conversation. (as universal and never personally meant - never about any one person, but that was a most sincere wonderful riff upon the 'issues'...and i know it was received fully - i enjoyed so finding that sincerity.) As, although inadequate - Neruda said " A conversation does not begin until we have been speaking for an hour..", it really was the perfect chat. All I have been about for 25 years but especially the last decade was in a wonderful, and i know sincere, meeting of minds. Doen't mean anyone ever has to do ANYthing...but 10 years i do seek some kind of at least creative thinker - anyone can! you just have to DO it.... on those subjects...
And I have been inspired to attempt to leave here one simple summary.
Even if for ten years my real main 'mission' has been the hilariously failed one to find a companera who is on the same page regarding certain things in that conversation. They are universal; but most became too precious (fearful and also made lonely by the absolute dystopian inability TO address the basics - and thus so many of their relationships rather shallow... and that's before we add in the atomisation of social media)
I am 100% constant. The mood i express - though 'pumped up' for the purpose of attempting to find new friends, is my mood, always, no matter what. I know i achieved that - never taking anything to heart ever again and also mojo 95% always - and keys are not in ANY self help book. It also happens that its crystal clear scientifically that we live longer and also are far more protected from the ubiquitous 'age related memory issues' if we do in fact 'engage' (with society) at the level that may indeed be sometimes a bit risky, and even lose us (shallow) friends... those who live out their integrity, really do keep their brain tip top and their eyes brighter for longer. That above all i would wish to pass on ....
26 December 2015 i walked out on midwinter morning...to sort of restart life a little. A few months after a several year splendid coupling up had ended, and kindof looking after a slightly troubled young woman ...it was time for me now.
For several years i had mentored the young woman into her wish quite independently to take part in grassroots (And official) Green politics in the region - our 'territory The Marches from Hay in the South to Clun in the North. 4 constituencies. Known on sight by various landowners and farmers in the region as ecofocused (even though i could speak 'farmer' as i had been one in my youth) there was always considerable risk. In the booneys they dont like Greens. They can get hurt. Especially when there were so very few of us.
I had also in 2010 and 2014 had two different experiences on fairly large (and valuable half a mil or more) landholdings owned by single women well into middle age which were hilariously dangerous. various forms of very dubious activity ongoing i had no idea of at frst and the way it goes as as one is seen as uncorrupted - even if one isnt daft you dont rub it in, they dont half scratch... they will do almost anything to harm you seriously - usually by false allegation or something similarly wonky..
For that reason i ALWYS had a 'protective' recording device on whenever i ventured out.
My entirely innocent quest pilgrimage that i didnt know i was beginning and which i would be engaged upon maybe 1/4 of all daylight hours from then until now was twofold but it became three.
I jot enjoyably most days at this site - a more cheeky seditious version of life, though far more real than this site aimed at attracting a publisher or filmmaker. This morning i put these audio files up
https://www.ralphschism.com/2025/12/the-solution.html
But there's nothing new in it as frequently i refer for years to two simplest matters: to protect the environment - be active in that world one is taken FAR more seriously if in a couple.
And one can be far more effective as a couple more or less singing from the same hymn sheet (As Bach inspired me to attempt to find in his rather great Bridge Across Forever).
Furthermore as i say in the first audio (on marriage or equivalent) even parents are treated FAR more respectfully by teachers doctors and any other 'child services' department if they are seen as a couple. Fact. If social services are made aware of some suggestion a child is being mistreated time and time again, in fact ALWAYS they are far less ready to abuse and play games with a child who has two parents that attend 'safeguarding' style meetings, together. Whereas they pick on single parents. Frankly many such organisations are little more than rather grubby 'bullies'. Bullies pick on solo targets. This extends into many other areas of life as riffed upon in the audio landlords treat solo tenants FAR worse than those in couples.
My objective find a new partner for life... aforementioned reasons. By that time almost recovered fully from 5 years of terrible inner cement mixer... my child was fatally used as weapon xmas and then fully January 2010, by the worst of all men ... they never recover from that ...
As i would wander along - mainly walking in the hills, chat up any potential new landowner - befriend, maybe find some enjoyable new smallholder/landwork - i like to do for around 1/3 the available daylight hours.
si i started to walk out most days a few hours sometimes all day. Around 1/4 of all daylight hours. I was based 100m from the base of the Welsh foothills 7km from Presteigne (a cheaper far shabbier version of Hay-on-Wye - ,me4aning most of the new wave of incomers there hhad only read about 2 half decent books in theior whole life but pretended they were Mother Theresa met Helen MAcdonald or RAynor Winn..) same distance from Kington (99% oldschool Herefordshire extreme drunkard druggy underclass) the other way. I far preferred my walkings out to....Kington.
In short as i walked (no car a few years) ... in the hills or sometimes to the towns for groceries and attempting to find on the cheap good books in the many charity shops around for my daughter's library.. (about 750 great books lit etc) i wouold speak with random peeps met in the rural places - often alone up in the hills, and attempt to get as ALLIES any local person - allies in Green stuff first..
but then as 2016 clicked in...on matters EU...
And from then my chats - i call chronicles CLEARLY never ever staged... became such an interesting record OF ... 2016... and the aftermath
But i DO things too....so myself i began to extend my wandering far further afield really revving up usually one to one talk on EU matters to discover if ANYone would wish to join others and be prepared at least to DO something...(come any future vote)
so i became most 'active' ... but nobody ever ever would follow through on their words...
2020 for me in past region infact rather enjoyed - we didn't 'have' a pandemic meaning very sparely populated and many did have to continue as normal - farming building etc... i revved up from summer into solely green issues chats and having solo stopped a large development 2016/17 and solo stopped a few other local eco problems i was ready to go into a superboosted orbit...so 3 years seeking allies.... so so many chats
ruined rivers (all The MArches now - all the way up the Welsh English border - which is almost impossible to grasp with such low population) ...etc.. Extinction Rebellion came and went...ran away crying actually. I was a kindof fairly active cheerleader attempting to nudge many in to meetings and become involved.
Then relocating (only for the one REALLY hoped for companera...to the SW summer 2023, that being a non starter, from early spring 2024 wandering 1000s of km the Coastal path and finding true jo at last: hundreds of walking Europeans !
I get on well with them having spent a lot of my first adult 20 years more in Europe than UK.
I am not in the loop in respect of European environmental matters but still was in respect of childhood.
Over 18 mths until this autumn i have had dozens of even formal 'interview' chats with European mothers and also many school teachers and social workers on their health Cornish walking holidays.
One day (soon) i must get to publishing it all - all recorded...
" so do you Euro mum/teacher have self harm, drug, false allegation, 'gender' issues continually distracting your day...?even child sui*ide..?"
" sorry what do you mean....what are you speaking about please?"
i.e. they dont
My chronicle near 10 years of what Britain really became ...though theres fun and me making a fool of myself chatting up admired hillwalking women etc etc... i know is important. There are ten books in it all.
One of course a Quixotic or even Odyssey-style ..'journey'...road trip all on foot and often just around a region i may be based in for 6 months down here moving every 6mths to different parts of the coast now by Dartmoor i guess i will stay at... though i have no idea if its possible to find ANY sincere friend - my my its so cliquey...and as for work, well
see the gibbers on ralphschism
One cannot believe one word that comes out of ANY mouth....ever any more....
And i photograph all my jobs for protection even after ive said on day 1 " i assume that every landowner rich enough to employ a slave at minimum wage will have hidden cameras so you wont get fiddled on hours of work...nor any tools pinched...." so it AINT ME as they all say GREAT JOB ... and either fuck you over future promised work (meaning you end up not looking for new work content with what promised) or 50% of the time have wriggled out of wages owed!
Thats why i record every word...
there is NO hope for the uk. None... morally bankrupts if the landowners - often nothing more than jhumped up ex bohemians whove inherited mummy's dodgy British Empire cash...cant keep to theior word: pay the rural day worker... there is nothing left
:-) me i love it...long ago learned to lean into it all and just file it all away for future comedic material if i ever geta socket to write it all up... verbatim will be fine... truth even stranger and more interesting than fiction
names changed to protect...
certainly not the innocent but even if i win 90% of my legal scraps they are SO boring and will cost some mad defamation actor ...more than me...
ohh yes another reason for my chronicles..
many times in 15 years i sought friend - many christian as it happens, asking "will you keep my story if i keel over dead my lass will know no truth of who her dad was..."
Discovering every single one narcissistic mad liar even my STILL friend Bishop Jo Penberthy, i often as i go like some wonky fool have told bits of my 'story' to different random peeps as i quest...odyssey...meander...
the real story
ralph substack audio podcast has already a fair bit woven into it...UNcensored...names named....sometimes
long listen many hours for a very rainy long winter i expect nobody to ever be bothered to ..
but when you cant ever trust anyone to even just hold your story....well..i did it the fun way. It was....and i learned so so so much too...
little bit more to add tomorrow
