I am a mad person. I actually believed 'change' - simple societal adjustment to something healthier in the world of kids, was possible. And stupid me i held on to that far too long.
My two main parallel 'causes' from the year 2000 were realistic common sense approaches to healthier psycholgies for kids mainly after family breakdown or when the state becomes involved if there is GENUINELY dangerous dysfunction in families with youngish kids. The 1989 Children's Act required the various (PAID!) services and authorities to ASSIST families facing turbulence. The first time i encountered those services entirely out of the blue autumn 2002 and with NO good reason ( a non event custody case started and eventually lost - vexatious litigation, by the other household) i wasn't quite as much shocked by pretty awful false evidence - perjury, sent to courts as sworn testimony by that household (the case DRIVEN by a weirdly sick man who had walked away from his own kids a few years earlier), more at how totally dystopian and Kafkaesque the whole system was.
And i know i did more than anyone else this century to give the whole system a VERY positive kick up it's back pocket which is what it had become about - using secrecy and awful bad practice to profit from the myseries of families in distress one way or other. Many many substantial pensions will continue to be paid for decades to criminally negligent judges, CAFCASS, social workers, and even the fringe elements who play part even the security man at the court where parents are tortured in secret chambers by the aforementioned.
But i am in most ways the lucky one. Nobody else wins a case as i did by 2005. Never. We had some fabulous years before the madman had to attack again. (My daughter from then - 2010 has Stockholm Syndrome easiest way of describing it)
I do nowadays consider myself having one great compensation. Which is that from around then I daily diarise and make many SERIOUS but engaging recordings.
I have 100s of hrs on what is in these jpgs, below
(handwritten as i am always battery limited living only in a small van, and ALL SWest libraries are so noisy most of the time - with many ill people, its usually impossible to concentrate there - there is no more humanity left in the UK.
I am lucky as i realised a decade ago ONLY writing honestly and openly about the mess the UK became - FAR FAR sicker than the EU ... in an irreverent funny way..is the only hope and i have a decade of recordings about the REAL version of brexit (the pro EU people failed to do any of the necessary work to harvest votes). And its the same with my other main interest the environment. All UK environmentalists squabble (or ego battle subtly) among themselves as its easier than squabbling with the actual polluters. This is THE one reason the UK environment in the last 27 years has utterly collapsed by every scientific measure. And the rate of devastation has more or less doubled the last decade. Sorry..i have 1000s of hrs of recordings that categorically tell that tale.
But saddest of all really is that as essayed upon here a little over the last few years the 'borderline personality disorder' - i hate labels but that one at least is accurate, among the would-be 'campaigners' of the last decade and going forward is so common that there really is nobody who can now bring in any further legal reform - it became all a hall of mirrors (or protect that which me and others fought so hard to bring in - and my transparency laws assisted more WOMEN than men to rightly keep their kids when SS were being evil to them)
I started to realise from around 2010 that women and some men calling me with terrible legal difficulties, even if i believed they didn't deserve state torture via their kids (i always CHECK for drink drugs and properly evidenced serious mental illness) simply had a range of stories about all their brave valiant 'campaigning' to get their kids back.. that were far more fantasy than fact. Most in fact couldn't even take the simple next legal steps they were kindly advised on over many hours, TO get at least a better quality court (eg up to the High Court - an easy process) to hear the issues... i do think that BPD is a fair label to apply - never maliciously i wanted every single one to do what they had sought me to help them WITH...actually fight, rather than make up their fighting.
So i started from 2020 to focus only one what stories / books do our children's generation now need...as i believe mine is beyond any sane hope
(3 years before then working on maybe a second brexit ref campaign - nb it was NOT 'binding'!...in Europe it would have had to be 60:40 minimum for any serious constitutional change via referendum, in my previous very rural region )
BUT i like ONLY groovy life affirming material, to INSPIRE, as in THE great film Captain Fantastic. Or French film Untouchable..
I have a list of such European books here https://leftovers2022.blogspot.com/
AND more important than anything LOADS - 100s of hrs of film with our zoo at home - esti me and a few other kids... and our many many travels by camper van all over the wild places especially. Those i must continue loading. They are I know the 'answer' I had NO money. Utterly broke. BUt managed to give a kid the fullest imaginable life. Always. No moaning. Never any self pity.
I have spent the last 5 years attempting to rev up a range of met-in- person female writers (or wannabe) writing up THEIR bees in their bonnets but in a genuinely inspiring way. In other words finding TRUE sublime in the great big stuck swampy mess of so much of the last few decades. Quiet a few have said to me over fairly protracted periods of time that they will. I bolster them in any way i can. But they never follow through
I have a load of part begun writing projects myself that i WILL plod on with and get published or made into film at some point
i will list them here later
mainly i jot at ralphschism.com
and there is one tab only that goes to other sites
https://www.ralphschism.com/p/index-at-last.html
best one is
